[se01ep22] always outsider, never outdone # 2 (Christmas)

I have given up some important volunteer duties in order to focus on things and projects that are important to me, but I am getting more and more depressed and anxious….
I know that this is a difficult time, not only for me, but everything everywhere and always can be overcome, everything is in your (my, own) mind…
I just hate being alone when everything boils inside you, when the cauldron of memories uncomfortably tells you what your past was like and what those holidays were like..