my life is full of holes and fears that sometimes burst out with uncontrollable fire. I know that I cause fear and hell to other people.
sometimes that self-fear does not give me peace and does not allow me to sleep, because it feels like “the world will collapse” because of me and my life.

sometimes I’m cruel and I wonder if it’s me or my illness, or if a healthy person would be able to survive all his angry emotions.

I get lost and don’t make friends with myself because I’m afraid to get attached to other people too….
so, it’s time to rethink everything and decide who, with whom, and how.
To Be Continued