I understand that sometimes I am a hard and cruel person, but sometimes in the blackness of my illness I give up from exhaustion.

I’m tired of being a positive character when everyone expects help and sympathy when I need understanding and compassion.
I’m tired of being everything to everyone, sometimes I feel everyone uses me. I feel that I cannot trust and believe in people, more and more strange music surrounds me.

I’m tired of being someone, I’m not saying that I’m a saint, but I want to be myself, not to be a representative of a boarding house, but, to be myself. and they don’t understand it
I’m tired of being useful to someone because I know or know more, I’m tired of being someone’s technical support. I want to tell them to leave me alone. but anyway, although I’m tired of everything, what should I do next…